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Monday, July 27, 2009
 A name whch has been stucked in ma heart.. yet beating fast & fast each dae... till it weakens dwn... Soon 2 juz stp... da sound of it pouting out ya name.. shall neva be heard again... whr it softens each dae.. mind wOnders whr & wad r eu dOi.. tinking Of eu each & evari sec.. dOzeing Off w eur face in ma mind.. wakeing up 2 check hp 4 msges or kOls frm eu.. evari ring Of ma hp makes mi 2 tink if its eu.. bud juz 2 leave mi w dissapOintment.. finding out & hearing things bt eu... breaking dwn intO tears is all i cld dO.. eu haf makeing mi feel lyk a fOOl within ma Ownself.. eu entertain Others.. but nt mi... eu bother bt others feelings & health... but nt mine.. eu make dam feel their impt 2 eu.. but nt mi... eu find solutions 2 do anth w dam bt nt mi.... evth has chg..if i were 2 ask eu..Or say anth.. eu'll hit mi bck w qns..whr its hard 4 me 2 explain.. eu'll say anth 2 get Out Of it..bud i cnt, as eu dunnO wads running deep dwn in ma heart.. sum tyms i juz ask maself.. wadeva eu said ish deep dwn frm ya heart? dO eu reali lOve mi? dO u still feel da same wae as b4? dO u even tink Of mi.. Or euve simply had enuf Of mi.. is tish wOrth da wait.. hw lOng is tish gOnna gO On.. in the end will i get things bck On track lyf b4? I SERIOUSLY DUNNOOO..IM @ LOST! i juz feel lyk a tOtal stranger 2 eu nw.. even thOugh deep dwn ma lOve hsnt chg a single bit 4 eu.. its even harder 4 mi 2 mOve On even if i want 2.. i cn nO lOnger gO On acting as if nth has happen.. thr 2 many slashes within mine.. bud eu? i shall letchu gO,if i reali haf 2........ wen cycleing w gf & bf @ bedOk reserviOr..    our bikes  adjusting   ma happinese PS;HEARTS BURING ON FIRE W WATERDROPLETS! Posted @ 10:55 AM Tuesday, July 21, 2009
 Im juz a KID & my lyf is a NIGHTMARE
What if I lead the way? What if I make mistakes? (Will you be there?) What if I change the world? What if I take the blame? (Will you be there?) I remember going back To a place we used to lay But I keep loosing track And now the days, they all turned black And our dreams start to fade But there's no turning back 'Cuz the world keeps turning (Why do you tell me you care if you're not gonna stay?) And my heart's still burning (Why do you tell me you care) What if I change the world? What if I lead the way? What if I be the one That takes the blame? What if I can't go on without you? What if I graduate? What if I don't? What if I don't? I'm slowly giving up As the world's keep loosing faith And you still turn your back And now the path I follow takes a toll on me, on you But there's no turning back And my heart's still burning What if I change the world? What if I lead the way? What if I be the one That takes the blame? What if I can't go on without you? What if I graduate? What if I don't? What if I don't? What if I don't? I'll be waiting here I'll be waiting here I'll be waiting here For you to call me What if I lead the way? What if I graduate? What if I change the world? Would you still remember me? What if I lead the way? What if I graduate? What if I change the world? And I found the words to tell you what you mean to me I'll be waiting here I'll be waiting here I'll be waiting here For you to call me wad if cnt TAKE it any LONGER??? 
tish ish icey blue! whc i fOund her under ma blk.. damn freaki small seh! i wanna keep her sO badly.. but fam din allOw as i readi haf ma hubby mr.dexter. bOohOo.. i fall in lOve w her icy blue eyes lahz! grrrr..! din wanna juz leave her.. sO i fed her milk & tried kOli peeps whu styed near by.. all Of dam cldnt make it.. neither cld i keep her 4 even 1 dae.. haish.. had 2 let her gO.. 
few daez bck had ma hairs curled. fwee demO.. tt curler damn gd! i waana gt it.. bud freaki XXXX sum 1 get it 4 ma bade yaw! $300
hahakz. i lyk! PS;ITZ HEADING 2 NO WHR.. (interview tish thurs @ faceshOp)
Posted @ 10:01 AM Tuesday, July 14, 2009
  im sOo da happy tt i gOtta meet ya lyk finally! secOndly sOdeh gak psl eu tk dpt ma msg.. ma wishes & wOrds frm deep dwn in ma heart were all thr.. includeing da tears tt i shed while texti! hemph! bud yet eu din receive psl ya budget hp! i rase masOk dlm sea pun ikan sumua mati. BABY i hOpe nw eu nOe wad im feeling deep dwn..ive tried 2 let it all Out.. bud i cldnt..Oni 2 tear..its hard,i keep saying the same thing Over & Over again as i dunnoO hw 2 let it 2 eu...wen all eu cld dO was say.. bud seriOusly..went i gt the grip OntO eu bOy.. it was a satisfactiOn + ........................................eu nOe i juz cldnt hide it..bud thr were certainly changes tt i felt & saw..OvercOmeing it bby. bud yet still AFRAID! if a gal says shes scared 2 her dude.. eu cnt blame her.. itz natural. & if she tear appreciate it.. feel it..feel her feelings instead Of being ashamed Of.. feel her pain bOi..  met bby @ ps awhile..had Our lunch... n lpk awhile as he waited 4 his sis..& he has pract sO he had 2 rush.. a vari shOrt dae w hym aft sO lOng Of waiting.bud nvm..endure.kate syg mahz..meet jp pun jadi..i juz cldnt bare 2 leave hym 2 bOard ma bus.. ma grip OntO eu were sO tight... i cldnt... im scared... i cnt... i need eu... im endureing.. cn eu c it??  bby ate ayam pangang 8pts  i ate nasi briyani 9pts PS;scared! Posted @ 9:21 AM Friday, July 10, 2009
 1stly i wanna apOlOgies if ma pOst has been all abt hym 4 da past few daez.. i cnt help it..things has juz been happening..bud HEY! finally im sOoo sOoo HAPPY! MEETING LOVE LOVE TMW! yey! he din prangai2 Otf juz nw..Our cOnvO wen smOOthly.. lyk finally he kOled..& we r lyk seeing eachOther aft hw many weeks i tink..i feel lyk itz been freaking lOng..he even plan da venue..lyk sO da amazeing! 4 Once he made mi =) & feel sO nicee..haha! yearning 2 hear ya vOice.. aft hearing.. it seemed diff... a vOice whc sOunded diff.. bud i felt tish feeli wen smOOthly deep dwn.. sOothes ma heart bby... bud yet im yearning 4 ya huggies & smOOches.. its lyk wOw...thrs lOtsa plan tmw! *suppOse 2 meet cuzzies @ wdlns *gO church w sis *hang Out w ma guy frens *Out w gfs 2 ctch da haunting mOvEe.. all plans canceled! juz 2 meet ma MR HEART MELTER! PS;CRAVEING 4 F A R H A N! Posted @ 11:34 AM Thursday, July 9, 2009
temp post BABY'S BCK.. WE HAD FEW CONVO IN MSN THINGS WERE SAID IM HURT HE DOESNT WANNA HURT MI EITHER HIS HAFING PROBS @ HM HE CNT EVEN KOL MI LYK DUNNO TILL WEN I CNT BARE IT BUD IT WAS SWEET OF HYM 2 KOL MI FRM $$ FONE WHEN I WAS REALI DWN I CNT TAKE IT.. I CANT TAKE DA DISTANCE I CANT TAKE TISH FEELINGS I NEEDA B CLOSER 2 EU I WANT THOSE TYMS BCK IVE HAD ENUF OF SHEDDING Y MUZ PPL SEPERATE US IM NO LONGER STRONG + IF I WERE 2.... time check:2am cnt slp bud 2 tink & tink Of tt sum 1 this few daez ive been reali dwn.. i cnt take it.. im still lOveing hym as much as i nOe.. im sOo dying 2 wanna c hym... grrrrr! WHEN SEHXX! *cries* you say i dun listen 2 eu? juz cOz 4 Oni tt 1 dae? selame nie i ade ke uat2 pape..? ade ke? eu kept qnsi mi bt eu? eu defend yaself.. bud wen say all thOse things.. ade eu phkr psl ma feelings? ADE? selame nie haf eu eva sat dwn & tink? tink bt hw ive felt? i nOe eu wldnt wanna this 2 turn out tish wae.. @ 1 point of tym eu even tOt Of it.. (i dOwanna mention) haish.. i cnt.. i reali cnt.. all u ask 4 is ma understanding bud all i ask 4 is juggle stuff. nt leaveing mi behind. im sOwiex. Posted @ 10:23 AM Saturday, July 4, 2009
 IM MISSING EU SOOOOO MUCH! IM ADDING ON MA LOVE 4 U AS MUCH! I MISH EU I MISH EU BEING BY MA SIDE I MISH YA TOUCH I MISH YA BREATH I MISH YA LIPS I MISH YA HUGS I MISH YA SCENT I MISH YA VOICE I MISH YA SMILE I MISH YA EYES I MISH YA EYEBROW I MISH YA MISHEVIOUSNESS I MISH YA LOVE! I MISH EVTH BT EU BBY.. I MISH DA PERSON HYMSELF.. I MISH THOSE TYMS... things haf certainly chg btwn us bth..bud da lOve is still deep dwn thr sum whr..eu claim eu lOve mi...bud ive seem 2 lOOse it @ 1 pOint Of tym..bud being left all alOne..aft evari quarell...aft all ma selfishness... ive realise...i still dO lOve eu as much...even thOugh ive rebelled Out Of Our lOve..as im lack Of ya lOve as well..i cnt seem 2 run Out of it..even thOugh i keep claiming 2 ppl things are shakey btwn us..nw ive regret..i sincerely wanna make tish werk & put faith in it...bud im yet 2 still haf tish negative tOtz within mi.. well juz let it be left mi myself n i den.mOveing On had appeared in ma tOts..itz hard..itz reali hard 2 leave eu bby.. ILOVEEU TRUCKLOADS! bby has gOne jb..he said he'll b bck 2dae sO here iam waiting im patientlt 4 his kOl..im sO freaking wOrried.. i nOe its Oni jb..bud he left ystd alOne & b4 he left we had a tiff,haish i feel sO bad sia..im sO ungrateful..ive been reali2 rude 2 hym.. i dunnO..itz hard...since da dae whr things happened..i seem 2 juz blOw up..esp wen tOking 2 hym..we hardly tOk nw daez & yet weneva he kols..it owaez ends up in a bad cOnversation..sO yea..wen he left ystd..i felt pretty bad.i pity hym..did i bully hym lots?haha.. seriously..i juz cnt wait 4 his kOl lahz..im wOrried sick here! im waitnggggggggg..  wen 2 ikea few daez bck.. n i saw tish design Of da rOOm.. niceeee...ma taste! bud i cnt seem 2 make ma new rOOm da exact wae.. cOz itz tOtally diff.. hakz.. bud nice lahz kn. fav red & blck!  im in love w da heart shape mirror PS;IFARKINGMISHEU F A R H A N! Posted @ 10:37 PM |
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